today i am grateful. grateful for a husband and two little girls who are healthy, safe, and sound. i am grateful that i get to hold them, kiss them, hear their voices, laugh with them, and tell them i love them...
but today i am also sad, upset, and tired. so very tired of hearing these stories of selfish people killing one another, killing children, their own family, people they don't know, people the do know...
27 families don't get to see family members come home today. 20 families lost their innocent little children. this hurts me, though i know not near as much as it does to those who were directly effected. but i will pray for them that they will be comforted and find peace. especially the family of the gunman. 
it's hard not to feel like you will just live in fear because of these constant horrific events. i should not have to be afraid to walk into a grocery store, a movie theater, a school, a mall...for fear that my family might be shot at. and yet there are countries where these things happen daily. so i am still grateful to live in this country. i just really miss home today. i miss small meridian, idaho. not that it couldn't happen there, but i do feel safer there, and it always feels peaceful.
so to ease my irritation, i will pray with gratitude for the safety of my family. play with my family. and probably go read some of the talks from general conference. it is good to be reminded on days like these, where i feel like i wish the end would just come, it is good to be reminded by our leaders how there is still much good in this world.
on a day like this especially, i am so grateful for the gospel.

pray. be thankful. and be good to one another. i am grateful for you all.


  1. I am with you Maegan- gratitude for the wonderful safe families we have!

    There was a talk by Dallin H Oaks at this October's General Conference titled "Protect the Children."
    It is sad and frightening what is going on with children- but we have to trust the Lord that all is meant for a reason and we are getting closer to the Second Coming with every wonderful and evil thing.

    Thanks Maegan for expressing your thoughts on it!

  2. I felt somber today, especially when I picked Rees up from school, it just felt different today.

  3. Along Allison's thoughts, I was so happy to see my children come home from school today. After hearing of the tragedy I had to stop myself from running to their schools, not out of fear, but out of a need to hug them and tell them how much I love them.


What's on your mind?